direction changing???

i am in dilemma again... after a series of rejection waves, i have started to have doubt within me... i ponder on the dream port that i have always wanted to head to... is my dream port really suits me??? i used to thought it is a perfect destination for me... but now... it no longer seems so... if it is, why the heck i was rejected??? however, there's another voice question me about my heart destination... now i am torn between the voice of my heart and the song of realism... should i change my direction, ship to another destination???

i dont have golden compass to foresee the future...


by the way, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!!! MUAHXXX...